snapshots of my so-called life

If I were in her shoes, I would have asked him what his plans are about “us”. Should we remain “just friends” or risk the friendship and take our relationship to the next level?

There is no denying that there is “something” between the two of them. They constantly talk to each other over the phone, over chat, over text even via email. They keep each other updated with the current happenings in their lives; even the minutest detail is shared between the two of them. They don’t merely talk; they also meet up for dinner or watch a movie.

Boy makes girl smile. Her face lights up when her alert tone rings, it lights up even more when she sees his name registered on the phone. They would then have their texting marathon/telebabad until the wee hours of the morning. This happens every single day. However, there came a time when she begins to feel disappointed whenever he doesn’t reply back as quickly as he used to or whenever no message was received from him for the whole day. Paranoia would creep in; thoughts that she might have said something that may have offended him come into play; even thoughts that he might have already met someone would set in. She begins to hate herself for allowing herself to be vulnerable; to be in this pseudo setup and swears never to talk to him again.

When boy suddenly makes his presence felt once again, everything goes back to the old arrangement. Girl succumbs to talking to him again… until the wee hours of the morning. This becomes a cycle that develops into a habit that’s slowly leading to a pit; a trap that’s hard to get out of once one has fallen deeply into it.

If I were in her shoes, I would save myself the huge emotional investment before I run out of resources to sustain this pseudo setup. Who knows, boy just needs a little shove to get him to admit and formalize this crazy setup. But then what if he’s just playing around and sees the girl as just a mere fun companion, a friend, worst his best friend?! At least girl already knows where she stands and no longer wastes her time over someone who doesn’t deserve to be an issue in her life.

SIDE COMMENT:
Pero on second thought, masarap din ma-involve sa isang pseudo relationship, the emotional rollercoaster is exhillirating! It gets better when you’re already at the edge of your seat as you approach the 360 degree turn. Sad lang when you’ve already reached the end of the ride. Well, you can still fall in line again and hop on the next ride.